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SoNNybOOmBooMLoCo
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Gender: Male
Interests: i like playin' "FOOTBALL" and chillen' it with the crew...
Expertise: Kicken' it with the hOme boys and the hOme gurls...shout outs to the "J-CREW", "PARE'S", AND THE FL LADIES...
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Member Since:
5/26/2003
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| well everyone, i know that i havent been bloging for a long time now...but i apologize about everything...SORRY...ive been through alot lately and i just needed time to think about things that im going through...right now, i feel depressed, sad, mad, happy, and sometimes i just cry cuh' i cant take the pain i feel emotionaly, physically, and mentaly...i know that i havent been spending time with homies, and i feel real awful about it too...i know i see them once in awhile, but i dont think just passing them by time to time will help our friendship...so, i thought about what im doing and i hope all my homies forgive me from what ive done...there are just things i need to handle...to my parents and family members, i know that i havent been home and i know that leaving home for weeks doesnt help me or you too...but its not like i ment to run away on purpose, its just i have my reasons...im sorry for not being there for my sis' and bro'...im sorry for not being there to help my parents at work and also for making them worry about me...i know im just 16, but i know that my parents stil consider me as their "BABY"...i can understand that and i have to understand that parents care about there children and that i have to be respectful to them cuh' are my parents...i know i havent been good son, bro', cousin, grandson, nephew, and a good friend...i know that lately i missed alot of things with all of you, but its not like i mean to hurt all of you and make you all worry about me...im SORRY...for all of you that dont know what im talking about...here: ive been running away from for days to 2 weeks and i know that i havent been doing any good and that i havent been helping anyone...but i need to be alone in my times of trouble even though i know that family and friends are the best people to run to for advice and to help you when you need help...but people have to understand that even though, i cant do it, cuh' im so STUBBORN...im SORRY...when i do the things i do, i dont mean to hurt anyone, make anyone worry, or even to let anyone think anything about me...im not different from before, its just i think of it as a phase im going through in my life...i know it doesnt really make sense, but its what i think im going through, doing the things im doing, and saying the things im saying...i what everyone to know that i LOVE all of you with all my heart...also, i will never forget what you guys have done to me...and of course i will return the favor...for now im going to go to school so i can make my family proud and prove to them that i can grad with my cousins my age...im not a failure, actually no one is...no ones stupid, dumb or retarded...people who are called that need to know that they are not stupid, dumb or retarded...i just think that they gave up and they are jusy lazy...i cured my laziness with the verbal support from my family and friends...so, all i know is that family and friends are the only people you need to get you on your feet...well, i know i have more to say, but i need to think for awhile...
"SON-DAI"
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| well, im at work right now which is in "SAN DIEGO"...im on my break i guess even though my parents own the damn market...so, i dont think they really mind what i do here...im on a laptop that my dad let me use for today...and i was thinking the whole day when i was laying on the bags of rice...(haha)...anyways, i was thinking that i have put alot of people into worry including my own family...my MOM, DAD, GRANDMA, SIS', BRO, AUNTIE'S, UNCLE'S, and COUSIN'S...i really apologize about the trouble that i have caused and put every one through...to my friends, i know that i have been distant and all, but to let you all know that its not like i ment to leave you guys or not call you guys...i really apologize about that too...i dont mean the thihngs i did and i hope you guys forgive me...(sniffx10)...i now know what i did and what i put people through...i didnt mean to, and i really dont want anyone hating on me cuh' thats one thing that i dont need right now...and as some of you guys im going to take a break from all this stress im in and im going to take it in HAWAII...and yah, its not like im going to move there, im just going to visit my cousins and kick it on the beach and look at the sky...im not going to check out the gurls cuh' im not into that right now...(if you know what i mean)...i havent been at church lately and i regret it too...and if you dont know, i ran away from my home for 3 dqays...thurs-sat...i came home sunday night to the crying of my MOM and GRANDMA...my SIS was tearing, and now i feel like a worse excuse of a brother now...now i can really say that cuh' im disappointed in myself cuh' of what i had done...i know that i should have called and let some people know where i was...so yah, i didnt mean to do it to make my parent mad at me and worried about me...i did it cuh' i needed some time to myself, even though i could of did it some other way...so anyways, enough of the sadness...i dont have summer school anymore, i guess imma have to take 7th period in school...DAMN...and now my dad ses that im a failure or something like that...and i think of myself like that...anyways, another thing im going to work in DAYGO for the rest of the summer 'til august...my offs are on the weekend...and the whole month of august im going to HAWAII and i hope i have fun relaxing and taking a break of everything thats stressing me...i hope i get everthing fixed in my life and that i dont do anymore things that worry anyone anymore...ill pray for myself, and i hope all of you that know me will pray for me too...aight then people...late | | |
| well, its sunday night...my day started when i woke up at 9 am...and then i was walken' around my house gettin' pissed off cuh' my dad was yellen' at me 'bout how i dont care 'bout my stuffers and that i just lend them to who ever i want...and i was like i do care, as long as they take care of it, then its all good...and besides why i let someone borrow my stuffers if i didnt trust them like that...then we went to pick up the stuff i lent to people...and then went to home depot and saw JAY and CHRIS B...then i went home to clean for CHURCH...and then i was gettin' ready to chill wit' the homies before 7...so , me AJ, and REGGIE went ponin' again today...and then JAY, CHRIS A and B, and STEVE met us there...we were playin' around wit' eachother about "bean dippin' and throwin' stuffers at eachother"...then everyone left except for AJ and me cuh' i was on my date with JANIE (my babe)...then after that all 3 of us went to albertos, but then JANIE took it to go so she left me...(like always) sniff³ =-(...then me and AJ talked about stuffers important 'bout my work for CARLS JR...i went home...so yah, that was my day...aight then people...late...
MISS YAH babe...(sike)....=-D | | |
| well, its sunday morning...and im talking to my "Janie babe"...i wanted to kick it with her more, but i guess her mom kept us apart...its all good...we'll see eachother tomorrow...i dont know what we're goin' to do but we'll see...uh, i was not at work today...i went to the mall and "poned" with AJ and REGGIE like around noon to 2...then went to JIMMY A's grad party and ate some tight @$$ mexican food and also chilled with: JOHN, JUNEF, CHRIS A and B, STEVE, JIMMY Y, AJ, REGGIE and ANTHONY...then we went to play some "MvC", "CS", "PLAYSTATION", and some "BALL"....there was like 10 of us at the MERCADO's pad today...it was tight chillen'...then me and AJ went to the mall again to "pone" some pants and stuffers...then i saw "D' NELLE" and "my babe, JANIE"...and then we met at "MONKEY FEET"...then when me, AJ, and my BABE arrived there, my BABE had to bounce...then me and my babe talked a while...then she left...then the "J-CREW" chilled at monkey feet and then we went back to the MERCADO's pad...did the same thing and then i went home...so that was my day and tomorrow is goin' to carzier...so yah, aight then people...late | | |
| ay people...well, i was working today and yesterday...i spent the night in daygo, thats why i wasnt in temecula at all these days...ive been busy working, and now that i have summer vacation, i think im going to work more often...but ya, i think i have fridays and every other subdays off...anyways, i miss all of you guys, cuh' its been boring lately...i miss: "J-CREW", "FL LADIES", "PARES" and the rest of the homeboys and homegurls...oh yah, when i go to "summer school" (which sucks @$$)...im planning to work ar carl's jr. (i dont know cuh' dont like the color RED uniforms) or at taco bell...i dont know yet...talked to john today and i was trying to keep on the friendship..many others to call...and dont think imma forget ya'll cuh' you know that i miss all of you...so if anything happens to me, you all know that i didnt leave without my love for all of you...so yah, all of you stay up...talk to ya'll later aight...aight then late!!!
ay baby, i miss you!!! | | |
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